I Miss You

I realized something last month.

I'm not omnipotent.

God gives us so much on this earth to do and love and be...and sometimes I think David's phrase, my cup overflows translates to daily life, too.  Too much goodness to fit in one day.

I love my family, I love being home.  I love crafting, I love teaching.  I love you.  

I love this beautiful blogging community that has developed on Happy Homemaker Me over the years.  I love the sisterhood, the support, the I've-been-there's, the lols.

You may have noticed something...I have, too.  I can only fit so many things in my cup.

My days are filled with tickling a toddler, reading her stories, singing "Itsy Bitsy Spider," picking broccoli up off the floor, and wondering where she learned to apply lipstick and bat her eyes.

I've also added a new little joy to our days by taking care of 3 month old Sabine, the daughter of some of our dearest friends.  

Since it's always been my goal to have the computer put away while Kayleigh is awake and focus solely on her, "me time" on the computer has been pretty small lately.  When Kayleigh and Sabine are both napping, or Bine (her nickname, pronounced "Beena") is home with her mom and dad and Kayleigh is asleep for the nigh is the only time that I bring out the computer and work (and by work, I mean grade essays from the two online ESL writing courses I'm teaching).  And then Jesse comes home, and I only want to be with him.  Blog time has been pushed out the window lately.

But--all for good reasons!  I'm so thankful for our place in life right now.  I'm thankful that by teaching and watching our little baby-friend, I'm back to being able to contribute to our family.  I'm thankful for the work that my husband does outside of the home, and I'm glad to have a way to help again.  I'm excited that we're on the road to banishing debt, looking forward to buying a family car within the next year, and able to spend time together.  Last summer, Jesse tried to carry two jobs to support us, and we never saw him.  This is such a healthier alternative!  God is good.

I'm not saying goodbye to this blog.  I'm just letting you know what life looks like right now.  It's crazy--in the most beautiful way possible.  Some days, I still feel stressed and wonder how I'm going to do it all, but most days I'm just thankful that I can.  

Things are slow here on HHM right now, but I'll still be around.  It just might mean that I'm posting less tutorials and series, and sharing more pictures of my lil cutie pie and moments from our daily life.  She is the joy of our lives, and certainly the bright spot in every day!

p.s. Kayleigh's shirt in this post was made by my friend Stacey (Bine's mommy!) only a few weeks after we found out that we were pregnant last year.  It's been sitting in my hope chest waiting for the special day our little Brubaby (nickname for the Brubaker Baby) could wear it :)